Sunday, October 10, 2010

A letter for mom

Dear Mom,
I'm just so sad...even though you've been gone from us for years due to dementia and our criminal healthcare system, watching you slip away forever makes my heart feel as though it is swollen and ready to burst.  You have been through so much.   Why do you have to go through this now?

I think back to when I was a little girl...you were my world.  It amazes me how you never once turned me down on the request to go outside to play.  For some reason the memory of our playing kickball popped up in my mind...there were probably a hundred other things you could have been doing but every evening after dinner, you would go outside with me and we would play.

I was never athletic but it was during those play sessions that I could be.  It was safe for me to try and you always made me feel as though I was so good at that silly game.

Mom, I'm so sorry for how hard life has been for you.  And, I'm so sorry for the pain you are going through now.

I love you,
BJ

1 comment:

Vicki said...

I happened across your blog and found your postings about your mom heartbreaking. I'm a social worker in a nursing facility and I deal with the effects of this horrible disease everyday. My heart goes out to you and your father. It sounds like your mom could be in a better facility.
There are good ones and bad ones. As a family member you and your father have every right to advocate for your mother's care. Just because your mother has lost her memory, she hasn't lost her rights as a human.
If you need advice or just an ear, I'd love to listen.
Vicki Anderson- Fort Smith, AR