Saturday, October 9, 2010

Slipping away

Today it became very evident that my mother is slowly but surely slipping even further away from us.  She has been almost completely unreachable for the entire week...almost unresponsive.  I'm trying to reach her doctor but haven't been able to get him to call me back.

I hear the sense of loss in my dad's voice.  He's watching his best friend disappear.  I feel the dread creeping into my heart...the dread of knowing she is going back into a catatonic state.  I wish we could understand it.  She is frozen...a fixed stare with her mouth wide open...unable to speak, unable to move...yet she hears everything, understands everything...she's simply frozen...cannot communicate out but takes everything in.

Life is just flat out cruel.

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